progress

30 minutes / 1.8 miles

Things felt really good today. I even ran a little at the end.

wanting to move forward

30 minutes / 1.79 miles

Todays effort felt pretty good. I'm not sure I am feeling any progress...just similar to what I have done in the past. I know you have to start from where I am ... I just would like to get past on this to feel like I am actually moving forward.

1/2 hearted

1.3 miles / 26 minutes.

I have no excuses. It was half hearted at best. I'll see if I can pull myself together enough to make a second, better effort after work. :/

"Well that's all that matters, what you think about you"

35 minutes / 2 miles. Good stuff.

So yesterday a work a guy asks me what it was I was eating. It just so happen to be Jenny Craig Lemon Cakes. So I tell him and for some reason it makes me feel uncomfortable so I must have sounded uncomfortable when I answered him. I said "Its Jenny Craig cake...you know, Diet Food". He says "You don't need that". to which I answered "well thank you (feeling my face get hot!) but I think I do." His answer caught me so off guard that I have been thinking about it off and on ever since. He said "Well that's all that matters, what you think about you" and then he walked away.

I am always so concerned about what others think of me. I've viewed myself as a fat girl for so long that I assume that that is how I am viewed by everyone else as well. Now the numbers don't lie. I need to lose weight, but I think that the shame is part of what has been keeping me fat. I think it is past time to start changing what I think about me!

Whew! That was tough!

Still breathing hard! 30 Minutes Biggest Loser Workout.

I'm starting to thing that the Cross training days are to make me long for the walking / running days! LOL.

This is gonna work!!!

30 minutes / 1.73 miles

Whew! Still winded cuz I'm in a hurry to get to work! This is gonna work!!! :)

This is a choice

30 minutes / 1.70 miles

I'm really glad I did it... I SO didn't want to!

I have this ideal of who I want to be. I am mentaly telling myself that I am that ideal...the idea that you just behave the way the person you want to be would behave, and you will become that person. So I get up and say to myself... I am a person that runs marathons. I am a person that looks at food, and uses food in a healthy way. The only problem with this is that I have a nasty voice in the back of my head repeating all the rotten things I have ever believed about myself. Sure, its easy to say ... "don't listen to that voice!" and I know that is the right thing to do. That seems impossible when its happening.

But... today, I heard the voice...felt the feelings... and chose to be the person that will run marathons. I will not give up.

Any step forward is progress.

8:45 am / 35 minutes / 2 miles
I ran two seperate times one for 3.33 minutes and the second for 2.55 minutes. So a total of 5.88 minutes. I know it sounds strange for me to know to the second how long I ran...but I run to certain songs. So I just checked my ipod and saw how long I ran.

Wow, it sounds a bit lame when spelled out in black and white...but those few running minutes had my heart pounding. :) I have to keep reminding myself that any step forward is progress.

Yes!!! It's a new year!

And here we go!

9:30 am 30 minutes 1.71 miles all walking...but still lots of sweating. lol

It felt so great! I have to say though it was a little disappointing how far I have allowed myself to slip backwards. But I have remember that I can choose to go forward from here. :D

Happy New Year!!!